Shiny Toy Pills at 4 am

I went to bed at 4 am this morning. The only reason i actually fell asleep was because I took twice as many pain killers as the bottle says you should. My knee has been killing me ever since my knee injury from running has decided to reappear. And the pain is hard to bare, because even a week after the run, i still have daily pain that keeps me up at night. But when you're lying in the middle of your floor, slightly hypnotized and listening to music, my pain seems to fade and the songs seem different. All of a sudden I wasn't listening to just a song, it was more like i was experiencing each beat of the song in my mind. I could hear a lyric, or a note and be transported into a dream where the lyric or note was symbolized. For example last night, or i guess this morning, i was listening to the Shiny Toy Guns because i thought their sleepy techno tunes could put me to sleep fast. When i was listening to "Don't Cry Out" at first the song made me feel like i was in a baby's crib looking up at a musical mobile that was spinning around slowly and emitting noises like wind chimes. And then I hear the drum beat and these new sounds that made me feel like i was standing in a crowd at a concert and jumping up and down to the beat of a euphoric song. As you're jumping in the crowd, this angered voice appears saying "I don't get you, I can't forget what you've forgotten, all along" and i imagine a girl alone in her room screaming to herself, not willing herself to cry over a boy. And then a voice of reason speaks saying "Don't cry out", stop your moping, love is an overrated emotion. Then through out the song you can feel her toying between searching for love or "breaking away, I'm all dressed up and I'm ready to play" which is a f-it attitude, I'm going to have fun, hook up with anybody "with no conditions". But she still yearns for the boy that broke her heart "I needed you to notice" (me) "That's all i wanted" she says. So as I am lying on the floor, my mind slightly tripping and blurring the lines of my room with my eyes, i realize that what i thought was a sleepy techno song, was the ultimate break up song for all those european party gals that dance to crazy techno and try to forget about the boy that got away.